dork did zumba and body pump again

Saturday morning bright and early my girlie that had a first date Fri night was texting me “Zumba, come join”. I was tired,I had been at a client site until nearly 2100 the evening before, and I was still sore from “dork did body pump last week”. ButI got up got dressed and was there in no time flat.

This particular instructor I describe as “the club dancing zumba”. I get that Zumba is all about watching yourself in the mirror, but seriously this one spent entirely too much time grinding with herself in the mirror. About half way thru I realized my neck and back were not appreciating my doirking to zumba.

It was a little bit easier to follow my girlie that was smack in front of me, I felt less out of step. I also did not push myself quite as hard as I usually push. I pushed too hard at body pump, the weights are light, and so it is easier to push more and more repetitions into the routine, and maybe a few extra pounds too. I have been increasing my protein intake, forcing myself to drink chalky drinks, and eating nutritional bars with higher protein content.

I realize I will never have the hard body I had 20 years ago, I certainly can shape up the muscles I do have and look pretty rock solid. Yes I am stroking myself…

 

A little ego and self absorbment wont hurt me or anyone else.

audio books

Today while putting my daughters room back together (she comes home from camp tomorrow) I was listening to an audio book called “He’s just not that into you” by Greg Behrendt, Liz Tuccillo It is in the same genre as “Not Your Mother’s Rules: The New Secrets for Dating (The Rules)” that I came across this past week.

I made the choice when I was younger to sew my oats, party, play and have fun. When I was younger I did not have the vision to marry, have kids and do the “normal” things in life. I was more a rebel with a cause (a topic for another day). Even though I men friends, and I had “fuck-buddies” I never really dated. My perception of dating was and still is that “dating” is too much work, I know nothing in life that is worth while is easy, but give me a break. Now there are books that explain “THE RULES“. It is all so tedious and consuming. Historically (admittedly not successfully after reading and listening to the audio book) if I had an interest in someone and there was chemistry we would do our thing whatever it was, if there was not any chemistry I never bothered. I could not be bothered to hang with or be touched by someone if there was no chemistry. Apparently it is a male trait that without attraction and or chemistry it does not can not will not work. Call me balanced between my estrogen and testosterone, hahahahahah  If there was not something there the I was attracted by forget it, you would not stand a chance to spend time near me.

I was a very outspoken, opinionated, never judgmental person, things have changed, I have aged, grown up, seen the light, and mellowed out. While I can be outspoken, I prefer not to be so vocal, and or expressive about everything. I spend more time observing rather than engaging. I still never judge, for I have seen what judgement does to people, and I chose to be different. If someone does something I do not agree with and it is not a threat of life and or limb I will keep my opinion to myself, only the threat of life/limb or the disruption of life are egregious enough for me to say something. When I see something I want I work towards obtaining it, whatever “IT” may be. Apparently in the dating world that is not the way things operate, who knew? Another life lesson learn the balance between when to work towards something and when not to? How confusing, and why am I supposed to participating in this game? Because it “FEELS” good? So do other things but that does not mean I do them. I am warm blooded and love sex as much as the next person, I love contact, of course it “feels good” to touch and be touched, it would be amazing to have someone in my life to have that on a regular basis. I am not sure I like it enough to play the dating games, being a single working parent with limited resources I am not sure how or if I want to “play these games”.

So that being said I have not heard from Mr. S this entire week, oh well it was a fun week we spent together. He had a very positive impact on my life in more ways than one. I am still in motion thanks to him. I will not call him, I will not text him, I will not email him. He knows how to reach me, and with my kids back home, booty calls are not a reality (I cannot bring myself to engage in sexual activity/behavior with my kids in the house no matter if they are awake or asleep and my kids are light sleepers). If it was meant to be it will be, a true test to faith.

Life is good, I will see my kids tomorrow!!!!!! I am ecstatic, elated, jovial, happy, and smiling. I will find a way once the kids are settled  in to have a social life. I have realized that I will also be a healthier person to maintain a life and an identity separate from my kids.

Dog Rescue

We volunteer with a local dog rescue, I love it, my kids love it, and we are contributing to society in a positive way (we are unable to make monetary donations). Today we were at an event and I overheard a conversation about another person is talking smack about this rescue. 

Look people Rescues are usually all or mostly volunteer, they scrounge to get by much less have extra. Why is so much energy wasted on talking this and that about each other? People involved are all passionate about the animals they are working with, why distract precious resources by creating havoc? If you do not like someone, or the way another rescue operates and no animal will come to harm by it, grow up and let it go, if an animal will suffer harm then report it and let the officials handle the problem until it is resolved. So much money time and energy is wasted when the pot keeps getting stirred, lets focus on the animals we are there to help, and set our egos aside (bruised or not).

We have five puppies adopted today, life is good for those furbabies!!!!!